Thankful

Today I'm Thankful For..

Gardens & homegrown food

Iowa Sunsets

New lives that will be joining the family soon

Warm cuddles from man's best friend

What are you thankful for today?

Xoxo

Blessings & Wishful Thinking

I've had a lot on my mind the past couple of days and I thought, what better way to get it off my chest then to write it all out on here. 

As you've probably noticed I didn't stick with the no-poo method for very long. I felt that it took a lot longer to shower then normal and I really wasn't seeing any results. Granted, I didn't try it very long but I'm a very impatient person so if I don't see results right away or soon after then I feel like it was a failure. I've went back to using my Garnier Fructis but I have been looking into getting a different shampoo and conditioner, just to switch it up and see if anything works better for me.

I've been on a marriage/wedding kick recently and it makes me sad that I'm not engaged or married yet. However; rings are very expensive and we just don't have the money for that at the moment so I totally understand why it hasn't happened yet. I can still be sad though right? I see old friends getting engaged and married and moving on with their lives and I feel like I'm moving at such a slower pace then them. Sometimes I feel like that's a good thing and other times I don't. I just wish Ross could win some money that would allow him to purchase a nice ring for me and also have enough money to pay for the wedding. I can't wait to start planning and organizing it! Ok, you got me, I've been planning and organizing it since I was like 10 - but what girl hasn't?

I know everything happens for a reason and that God has a much bigger plan for me and my life then I could ever possibly imagine but sometimes it's hard to go through life without knowing what the future holds. Obviously my future will be with Ross but who knows what could happen within the next 5, 10, or even 2 years. He could propose tomorrow for all I know, or he may not propose until 5 years from now. I just keep telling myself that when the time is right it will happen.

After telling you all this I don't want you to think that I am unhappy with my life because that's sooooo far from the truth! I am sooo incredibly happy with my life and who I'm sharing it with. This is basically just me writing down the thoughts that swirl through my head - but in a much more public place.

All this wedding talk has also got me thinking of who I would want to stand up with me at my wedding. Ross & I have talked about this a lot and it seems like every time we do he has a bunch of people he can choose from and I have about 2. It makes me wonder where I went wrong in the friendship field. I was never very good at making friends  keeping friends so it's hard for me to see all these other girls who have tons of friends or who have a lot of people to hang out with. On the other hand I know that people come in to our lives to teach us a lesson or help us a long in someway and once they've fulfilled their duty they move on. 

I started thinking about all this on Sunday after I attended Ross' sister's baby shower. It made me so happy when I found out that Lacy's best friends, that live 1 1/2 - 2 hours away were driving here to put on the shower for her. Her closest friends showed up and after the shower I took a group picture for them. At that very moment I realized that I hadn't taken a group picture with any girl friend's in a very very long time. It made me so happy to see that Lacy had such amazing friends that were willing to do anything for her, but at the same time it made me sad because the two girl's in my life that I know would do that for me live far away and I hardly ever see them :(

These 2 ladies are in my life to keep me sane, to help me over obstacles that I have not even reached yet, and to love me. One of these girl's I have been best friend's with since about the 6th grade. We've told each other EVERYTHING about ourselves, our relationships, thoughts, ideas, etc. I've always gone to her when I needed advice about something or just when I needed to get something off my chest. It's so hard living two hours away from her. I know that doesn't seem like a lot but when you only have 1 car and life getting in the way of everything it can be hard to see her.

This other special lady has only been in my life for a little over a year now. I met her at Iowa State and we've been best friend's ever since. I didn't really know anyone while in Ames so when I met her and we hit it off I was so happy! We would go on Starbucks runs, we'd go to the mall, go workout, etc. It made me feel so good because for the first time in a very long time I actually had a friend that wanted to hang out all the time and who genuinely liked me for who I was! Since moving back home I now live two hours away from her as well. It was so hard leaving her because I didn't know when I would see her again. We still haven't seen each other since I left :(

We do have plans to meet up in a couple weeks though!!

So if you asked me today who I would choose to stand up with me at my wedding I would choose these two ladies in a heartbeat. I truly feel like their is more then 1 soulmate for everyone. You need your friends and your significant other. One you marry & the others you vent to about the other one ;)

I hope all of you find peace with where you are in life right now & know that there is a purpose for your life and the moments that you are living. Remember to let go of those who have served their purpose in your life and open up for the new ones that will be coming in. I am one very lucky & blessed girl and I hope that all of you will someday find all of your soul mates - I know I've found mine.  

xoxo